Life is kicking me hard - please help

Ten years ago, I fell and broke my ankle. Since that fall I have been in pain and the pain has gotten worse. Even through the pain I worked. I did want was necessary to take care of my family. After five surgeries I have no relief. The last surgery was in August 6, 2008 the pain has gotten worst since this last surgery. The doctor told me the arthritis has gotten worst, and I needed another surgery. Right now I have no medical coverage since I have not been able to work, therefore I cannot have the surgery as planned.

I try to apply for disability from work I was denied because of pre-existing conditions. Even though I was told it would not be a problem for me to have the coverage every month for 2 years the money was taken for my disability coverage yet once I need the money I was denied.

I am currently not working due to the pain. The pain is excruciating. I don't want anyone to take care of me. I just need a starting point so I can pay my bill, have enough to finish the surgery and pay the surgeon.

The most frustrating thing in my life is that throughout all this. I lost my seventeen year old son to cancer, and I was not working at the time to even pay for his funeral. Thank God for my church they stood with me through all the lost of my only child.

He does not have a marker for his grave yet, because I have not been able to work to buy a marker for his grave. He passed away in March of this year and it hurts that I cannot afford a marker for his grave. I feel hopeless, helpless and I do not like that feeling.

I just need some support until I am able to take back my life.